Just Being xMe

I think we are all just afraid. That is why some people cry and some people get quiet. We are all afraid. We are afraid of the change. We are afraid to leave the known for the unknown. We’ve been in our comfort zone for four years and now they are telling us to start over, that is nerve racking. We are afraid to loose our friends, and even the people who aren’t our friends. We are afraid to leave the familiar faces because even if we had rough times and just couldn’t see eye to eye, we are afraid to leave what we have come to know so well. Change is hard. And we can’t hold each others’ hands anymore. And that is scary. Like the first time you are allowed to cross the street by yourself you check back and forth, back and forth, with each step waiting for that car. This is just another street that we are finally old enough to cross on our own. Don’t be too cautious with this one. Don’t think of all the people you won’t see when you walk into those first doors. Don’t think about how big it is compared to the 500 faces you were used to. It is okay. Change is hard. But we can do this.

Not crying my eyes out, never going to be happy again sad. But I am sad. Even though this place seemed like hell to me. I am going to miss it because that place is all I know. I am not good with change. And I’m not sure how well I’ll take it when it’s really the end.